Welcome to 'Skintight,' a New Scleroderma Column

(Sung to “Defying Gravity,” with apologies to Stephen Schwartz.)

One thing has modified inside me
Some elements are getting tight
I’m by way of with tiny buttons
Give me sweatpants day or night time.

Too late for second-guessing
Too late to return to sleep
It’s time to belief the methotrexate
Twice a day, it ain’t low-cost.

It’s time to attempt to depend on gravity
No time to cry, I’m counting on gravity
I feel I’ll strive counting on gravity
And scleroderma can’t pull me down.

Gravity. Regardless of retaining all the pieces on Earth from floating away, gravity will get a nasty rap. People are at all times attempting to defy it with jets, rockets, and Broadway musicals. Plastic surgeons finance their newest Maseratis due to the consequences of gravity on their over-50 clientele.

However with the development of scleroderma and the constriction of my fingers, I’ve discovered gravity to be a devoted buddy. 

Getting a safe maintain on glass jars with my claws, previously generally known as fingers, is often a futile endeavor. When an merchandise is on a excessive shelf it comes right down to how a lot I actually need it. (Triple the quantity of grape jelly and anchovy paste can actually substitute for peanut butter.) That’s doable for residence, however when grocery purchasing I don’t need to be restricted to waist-high product placements. I’m on a mission to amass all the pieces on my Hey Kitty-themed product listing. 

Most of the time, a few objects I want will probably be on the highest cabinets. After I was youthful, 5’4”, and scleroderma free, I might attain top-shelf objects with ease. Now years wiser however a great inch shorter, I’m as stretchable because the Tin Man from “The Wizard of Oz.”

My preliminary technique was to snag a passerby to assist me get objects. Earlier than COVID-19 this was comparatively simple and 100% of individuals would gladly assist. Now, approaching a stranger within the 6 ft “hot zone” and masked up like a financial institution robber, my achievable fee has dropped to beneath 20%. So, I depend on gravity to drop the merchandise right down to me.

On my tippy toes I can often brush the jar to the sting of the shelf and hope I catch it earlier than it hits the ground. Nevertheless, as a result of my hand-eye coordination is so dangerous that I can't hit the aspect of a barn — in PE class I used to be at all times the child they put out in proper subject — after I store it’s not unusual to listen to over the shop audio system “Clear up on Aisle 4.”

It was midday on a winter’s day in Shanghai. With my canine in tow, I bundled up in a down-filled parka, mittens, hat, and sheepskin boots, despite the fact that I’m positive the temperature hovered round 50 levels F. Lunchtime introduced large waves of white collar staff to the outside avenue stalls, hoping to scarf down a bowl of steaming noodles of their half-hour respite. My year-old pet who was bred to drag carts charged at a free dumpling on the bottom and knocked me over. It’s arduous to stand up gracefully when your physique is fused like a stiff board. It’s more durable nonetheless while you’re wrapped up just like the Michelin Man’s much less well-known cousin. I felt paralyzed, like a turtle on her again. I attempted to generate sufficient velocity to get upright by rocking aspect to aspect, however it simply resulted in greasy smears on my coat. 

Gravity was not being my buddy at that second, mendacity there within the meals avenue alley, gas-powered scooters barely lacking my outstretched limbs. The lardy sheen of 6-week-old cooking oil wafted down on my face — might use extra garlic, I believed. I felt surprisingly peaceable. I had accepted my lot. 

Whether or not gravity and scleroderma have been associates or foes or each, by way of my ongoing journey I lastly discovered that endurance is healthier than panic.

Positive sufficient, two very candy and dainty Good Samaritans reached down to drag me up. It was apparent they wanted extra heft to achieve success, so a noodle stall proprietor came visiting to assist. I'd say it was out of kindness, however contemplating I used to be blocking her entrance, I feel there was some self-interest concerned. 

And it’s time we attempt to depend on gravity
No time to cry, we’re counting on gravity
All of us can strive counting on gravity
And scleroderma can’t pull us down.

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